Doin'' My Time

Well, this is officially hell week. I am here, I can't go back, only forward. After this week, everything will change. My older son graduates from high school on Thursday.

I am going insane. Everything I have done to avoid the lazy questions. All of the accommodations I've made seem to be all for null. Why did I bother?

My house is almost as clean as it's going to be. My life's in as much order as I can muster right now. Everyone is heading this way and I am FREAKING out. My MIL is a very high maintenance person. She's wonderful and sweet, but so high maintenance. So in the midst of all of my labors to keep all the balls in the air, I will also then be stopping to assist her. Because my husband and his brother will be as they always are, thrilled to see each other and off doing their own thing. I am on the verge of a primal scream.

My MIL will be here, my ex MIL and FIL and Ex husband will all be here. He's in the midst of YET ANOTHER, divorce, so that mess will be here too. Aside from my brother, the rest of my family will be here, and my niece is due to drop her baby most any moment now, I bet it happens Thursday. We are putting on a big party Friday, which I will likely be locked up on the psycho ward for.

I am going to start plucking my hair out. I feel like I am spiraling to insanity. This has been a long year. I have tried to make this a great, positive, wonderful and exciting senior year for my son. I want this to be a good memory in his book of life. However, in all my trying to make it great for him, I literally think I have caused and ulcer with me. All I want is for this to be over with, and everyone happy.

On top of the Grad on Thursday, and the party on Friday, we are having a 4th birthday for my toddler on Saturday and Sunday, we are all going tot eh cabin for the day to hang out. Because My dad wants to go. uuuuuggggggghhhhhh...LOCK ME UP NOW!!!!

We cleaned all day today, I've spent about 4 hours on my hands and knees scrubbing floors. We stopped at 5 and I got dinner done and eaten so we could race out and go watch the All Star game tonight. My son was given a spot on the team. It was a great game, I am glad it's one less thing on my calendar of events. I hate that I am not enjoying any of this. I am too busy ticking off in my head, what needs to get done next.

Anyway, it's late, I'm tired and tomorrow is another day in the cycle, and the last one I have before all my guests start arriving.

Ciao Tutti!

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