I am back

I should never have left my little abode. I jump all around. I forget about this blog. My original.

Too much has happened in the year or so since I jumped ship here.

Love of my life is gone to that freaking dreaded deployment. It'd be OK, except that daily, it feels like we get speared and slipped over a spit to slow roast. This unit makes me insane. This military makes me insane. This freaking Government makes me insane. I AM FREAKING INSANE...Like that was not a known thing, but oh-the-fuck-well-dude.

The involuntary extension happened last week--or week before last, who can recall the details now, with so much going on. The memorial services happened last week for the two we lost. The day was so hard. We all went to lunch after and it was so nice. We just all needed some kind of break. Though it was hotter than Satan's nuts sitting out there in the heat.

I was talking with a neighbor, her husband's unit has lost 6 men this month. With so much going on in our unit, I had not paid attention to the other units here. The MPs lost one too. My God, how can death come to visit so easily. All these young men lost. Families smashed. It's so overwhelming. Now I find we are looking down the barrel at another deployment wittin 7 months of their return--IF they do indeed return when they have said. Yeah, holding my breath for the NEXT involuntary extension.

I wonder what it is about Fort Polk that Karma seems to be wanting to repay all the shittyness of the world onto. I swear this place is cursed. Let me the FUCK out of here. If he gets extended here, I am going to have to develop a new life. I can't do this here, but I can't live without him. When he gets back, he will be very close to retirement and I am seriously thinking the dropping of the package could be a wondrous thing.

The up side- the new play starts next week...So I will be busy for the next two months. Maybe after that, things won't look so grim. Hmmmmm NOT...

OK, I have bitched, pitched and moaned over it enough. I will stop this rant now. I have developed a serious case of potty mouth on top of it all too. LOL I'd wash my mouth out with soap but I am not sure that'd help.